Secret sex thing IS THAT I LIKE WHEN SOMEONE FORCES ME TO HOLD MY PEE OK

I KNOW THIS IS SUPER WEIRD BUTI JUST LIKE IT BECAUSE IT'S LIKE FORCING AND THE FEELING IS SO UNCOMFORTABLE THAT IT'S ACTUALLY NICE YOU KNOW BC I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T CONTROL ANYTHING AND JULIA IS NOT MAKING THE RULES AND IT'S KINDA LIKE A PUNISHMENT LIKE I KNOW IDK AND IT'S JUST BC IDK IDK IDK WHEN I MASTURBATE WHEN I NEED TO PEE I GET SUPER WET EASIER AND I THIK ABOUT DUANECHOKING ME LIKE ''NU JULIA YOU DON'T GO ANYWHERE U KIKKELIPÄÄ NU NU NU JULIA IS MINE AND NEEDS TO DO WHAT I SAY AKA STAY THERE AND BE FUCKED I DON'T CARE D:<<<<<<'' AND THEN IT'S KINDA NICE AND PLESE YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO REACT THIS YOU'RE THE FIRST PERSON I TELL AND IT'S WEIRD SO DON'T JUDGE BC YOU DON'T OFC NEED TO EVEN DO THIS BC I ALWAYS THOUGHT IT CAN BE JUST AN MASTURBATION THING AND NOT SEX THING BUT I STILL KINDA LIKE IT :(((((